This is probably one of the hardest blogs I will write on this race. And it is only that because of the content. To be quite honest I hesitate to write it out of fear. Fear of how my family and friends will respond. Fear if rejection. Fear if being misunderstood. But through all this I know that I need to write this for all of you to read. First because I do not want fear to hold me back and I know these fears are not of God. And secondly I want you all to know what God has done in my life and the change that has occurred. So without delaying anymore here is my journal entry from January 6.
Morning:
“Holy Spirit just showed up in a mighty way. What started as what we thought was a simple worship session with our team and one of our youth turned into an outpouring of the Holy Spirit. Three people standing around me have spoken in tongues in the last 20 minutes. I asked God if it was my time and He said, “Not now.” He then told me it was time for Christina and Kaysea and I was supposed to pray them in. So as the rest are praying over the youth, I begin praying for my teammates. Then God says, “Now!? and I knew it was for Christina. And as I looked over at her, she began shouting in tongues. It was beautiful. So we continued to pray and as we were praying God said, “I’m ready for Kaysea.” So I watch and pray for her as Christina reaches out and touches her and she starts speaking in tongues too. It was Awesome! And it wasn’t long after that before our youth began speaking. Not with all the confidence of maturity but his spirit spoke. My time is coming, but its not now and it’s different for me. For me it is rediscovering a language long forgotten. I spoke in tongues in kindergarten but wasn’t prepared for the full gift and that gift was not fostered or used after that time.”
Night:
“Tonight it happened! I spoke in tongues! It started as one word and that was all I could say. That was until we started praying over Haley. Half way through praying over her my tongue was completely loosed aand has been going nonstop for the last 10 minutes. I cant stop it and I don’t want to. When I stop speaking aloud my spirit continues to speak directly to the Father. It’s AMAZING!”
So this is a daily part of my life now. It is such a sweet time when I can communicate with Papa in a language that is just for Him and me. It has brought us that much closer together and He gives me the words when I don’t physically have them. It really is beautiful communication between me and Papa.
Please don’t hesitate to email me any questions you have based off this blog. I will do my best to answer them.
