Friday,
February 19.
“Are you
okay?” one of my classmates asked as I walked into my professor’s living
room 20 minutes late and with tears
in my eyes.
“My life
is in shambles!” I
exclaimed as I weaved my way through the 6
girls sitting on the floor & headed to my usual spot – next to
Stephanie.
I had just left my advisor’s office more
discouraged than
ever. I was 11 weeks away from graduation with ZERO idea of what I was doing with
my life. I knew I did not want to go to grad school right away, but in
the
field of social work, getting a job in a medical setting without
experience or
a master’s degree is nearly impossible. Neither of the open RD positions
at
Olivet was of any interest to me… McClain isn’t open for another
year…
Saturday, February 20.
I put the 3 boys in bed (I was babysitting for the
weekend),
and I went downstairs to do my devotions. For the next 45 minutes, I cried. I had
a complete mental breakdown. As much as I had been seeking the Lord’s
guidance,
I just could not hear that still small voice.
Sunday, February 21.
At church, we sang “Even if I Fall” … “though
my way seems uncertain, it’s in You i will put my trust.” Thanks,
Jesus.
Monday, February 22.
My RD application was turned in. I really did not
want to
turn it in, but at this point, I had no other options…
Tuesday, February 23.
I left work and checked my phone. I had a missed
call from a
number not saved in my phone. It was the same number I had been playing
phone
tag with since mid-January. Heather. My missions coach. She asked a few
questions, and after about 20 minutes, she had convinced me to check out
the
World Race website.
I spent the next 4 hours on The World Race website.
My heart
was racing. THIS
is how I could spend the next year of my life!
Wednesday, February 24.
Wednesday night, I filled out the application. I
signed up
for a phone interview that would be the following Tuesday. I was
EXCITED!
Thursday, February 25.
Talked to my parents. They weren’t as excited as I
was… I wonder
why?
Friday, February 26.
I e-mailed 5 very important women in my life. I
asked them
to pray about this opportunity placed in front of me. Thank you, ladies!
Tuesday, March 2.
My stomach was in knots the entire morning. Sitting
through
care plan meetings at work was probably the hardest thing I have had to
do in a
LONG time. I thought I was going to throw up. My interview went well, I
thought.
We would soon find out…
Thursday, March 4.
As I sit in one of the social work offices making a
home
health referral, my cell phone starts buzzing. I excitedly hand the
office phone
to Amy & leave the office. I could have SCREAMED! (in fact, I think I
may
have). I GOT ACCEPTED! I immediately called my mom. Again, she wasn’t as
excited as I was…I told her I would be home the next night to talk to
her &
Dad.
Friday, March 5.
Another seminar day – I was able to update my
classmates on
the past 2 weeks. Since the last time they had seen me, my life had gone
from
shambles to AWESOME.
I went home to talk to my parents. Even though they
were
both hesitant, they were definitely on board. Because they know me, they
knew
that I would go anyway. This is just perfect for me, you know? I’m the
type of
person who gets up & goes. When someone asks me “Why?” I say, “Why
not?”
Having both of my parents on board definitely lifted a HUGE weight off
my
shoulders.
I immediately put in my deposit & now… HERE I
GO!
I am just so amazed at how God can work. He never
gave up on
me. Even though I had all but given up, He proved once again that He is
faithful.
God,
Thank You for remaining faithful to me. Thank You
for your
daily reminders that You work for the good of those who love You. I love
You.
Amen.
