The joy that God
has given me over the week and a half of training camp is insane. I’ll catch
myself walking through His creation and it just bubbles out of me in unexpected
laughter. I feel kind of silly sometimes, walking around with such a huge grin
on my face, but then I want to sing and dance and jump and shout that God is so
good!
One night during
worship, God was revealing more of His plan for me in visions. I felt and saw
freedom, I had wings. He covered me in His light, gave me power, and made me a
warrior. (What’s really awesome is later on this week, one of my teammates told
me God had given her a word for me. It was WARRIOR) I learned that my life is a
picture. And in my picture, I’m also trying to be the artist, painting and
drawing however I wish to make it perfect. But God stands back and sees the
bigger picture and He wants to make it a bit dirty, wants to mix it up and give
me something so incredible. He says I don’t have to be perfect! He has made me
who I am, and that is what I need to be.
When I surrendered to that, when I jumped off the divide into the great
unknown, I was caught up in golden light, spinning, twirling, dancing, crying
for joy. The Holy Spirit was there, and that camp in Tennessee was a beacon in
the night as the waves of praise roared in response to an awesome God.
Now that I’m home,
it feels different. I miss my spiritual family and the closeness with the
presence of God that I felt. I even missed it so much that I set up my tent in
the backyard and have been sleeping outside! You know what’s funny? I never
experienced culture shock when I left for four months to travel the world and
came back home. But I think I’m experiencing it now… Please pray for me to have
patience and joy as I wait to leave in August, and thank you for your continued
support!
P.S. Check out all the awesome peeps on my squad!!!!!
