How do I know when The Lord is speaking to me:
What I know i should do (Gods will according to his word)
VS
What I think I should do (leaning to my own understanding and counsel)
When i feel the Lord is impressing something upon my heart in regards to making a decision "to do" or "not to do" something there is this a great battle that wages. It is as though " what I know to do" is attacked by "what I think I should do."
For example: I may feel The Lord impress something on my heart and I know that I should do it, but when I am fully convinced that "I know", then comes the thoughts that say well maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should wait or do something else instead because of this, this, and this. At that point anxiousness seeps in, confusion starts to linger, my eyes become blind, my ears become deaf, doubt creeps in and I am at war!
So at this point then what? Well the only thing I know to do is go to the word of God and prayer clinging to the promises of Christ and to the counsel he has provided.
Scriptures that I use are as such:
1 corinthians 14:33 For God is not a God of confusion but of peace. As in all the churches of the saints
John 10:27 My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me.
Philippians 4:6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths
Ephesians 5:17 Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the will of the Lord
Psalm 37: 5 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act.
James 1:5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.
Such promising and great scriptures!
So from some of these scriptures I know that he is a God of peace and not confusion. I know that I am not to lean to my own understanding. I know that I am not to be anxious for such is not from him. I know I am not to be foolish.
Back to " what I know to do" vs. "what I think I should do". I realize that whenever such a battle begins and I lean to one side rather than the other certain things begin to happen. When I lean to "what I know to do" I feel peace, I feel no anxiousness, my faith is solid, and I seek eagerly the counsel of God with joy knowing I've heard his voice. On the contrary, when I lean to "what I think I should do" I begin to doubt if it was him, I begin to become anxious, I am defeated by fear, I am confused and at a loss. Now you tell me which of those are from God!
My lord, my God in whom I trust with everything and everything belongs to is so faithful and he says my beloved son arise my love, my beautiful one, and come away, come and eat from me. The immeasurable riches of his sufficient grace, steadfast love, astounding gentleness, enduring mercies and infinite wisdom is all i have and is all i need. This great lord whom I cry to hears every word, he remembers me, he counts every tear for they drip into the bucket set aside in the shelter of his might arms. I'm so in love and I so in awe of this king.
Please read pt. 2 there is more to share about funding and where I am at.
