When you are accepted into The World Race, you are asked to do many things in preparation, writing blogs being one of them. The awesome peeps at AIM asked us to write 3 blogs right off the bat, one of which needs to be about what we expect to gain from our trip. Woah! At first I thought, do I even want to begin to put expectations on this thing?! Not really. Kind of like "Nobody puts Baby in a corner!" No one puts God in one either!
Then I thought about it some more, and honestly, anything we can come up with, God can completely blow out of the water! So I dared to dream. I honestly hope God demolishes me. I want to be in lots of little pieces so all my issues show. Every doubt, insecurity, every lie from the enemy I've ever believed, out in the open and easy for Jesus to come along, grab the bad pieces and and throw them out! I want to get shattered out in the bush of Africa or the poverty of Central America where I will be surrounded by family who lives and breathes for God just like I do! People who will be going through the exact same thing, or about to, and have the same desires as me. I honestly don't think I could pick a better place to get broken. (But that's just it, I didn't pick it, GOD DID!) When you think about it, there is nothing for me to run to but Christ and fellow believers. No vices, usually readily available to me in America, to fall into. Just the J-MAN and an entire support team with hearts on fire for Christ and who love me! That's what is so amazing about this race!
So now I'm broken, I've got what I need to work on with Jesus all out there in the open, and then He will start to rebuild me! I'll begin to get stronger, and start to use my brighter light on the race! I'll get brighter and brighter, and stronger and stronger! And think about it, I'm on a squad of 60-70 people all going through this process… God is going to make us one legit force, like an earthquake, traveling the world and loving on His people! I can't even put into words how excited I am! I can't wait to be rebuilt into the woman God has always wanted me to be! I know it will be hard and not always rainbows, cinnamon and unicorns, but that's what God is for. I can rest in Him, and rest in my radically cool squad He has provided me with! It is going to be thebomb.com! It is going to rock my socks off and that's all I could ever ask for!
So that's what I want from this trip DAD; to be broken, restored, and rebuilt into the woman you've always known I'd be! (Jeremiah 29:11) Anything more I can only see as an amazing and unwarranted gift from You that I will cherish! All I can say God, is You are Amazing, I love You, and thank you for The World Race, and for getting my stubborn butt to do it!
