As I sat in the back of a pickup truck with 70 mph wind crashing against my face, I watched the most beautiful sun set over the mountains of Tegucigalpa, Honduras. And I realized, how could I not want more?
I’m beginning to realize that God is continually inviting us into more. Pleading with us to see, take and experience more than we can imagine.
But it’s our choice whether or not we step forward. The scariest thing is to walk out into the dark, armed with nothing but faith, praying that you’re headed in the right direction. It’s overwhelming. It’s terrifying. And it’s exactly where He wants us.
He asks us to blindly hand over everything we have, everything we’re tightly holding onto, seeing if we’re willing to risk it all for the unknown.
I don’t know about you, but I feel extremely confident in my abilities to plan a future that’s safe, comfortable, exciting and everything I need. I know I would be perfectly content in this self-planned future. And God would probably look down on me and smile and nod at my attempt. I would continue my relationship with Him, growing daily, experiencing His love and wonder in unreal ways.
But then there’s the future He has planned for me. It’s dark, it’s scary, it’s unknown. I know I’d have unbelievable happiness, but I’d also be vulnerable and out of control.
Last Sunday I decided to answer the call to be rebaptized.
That’s right, REbaptized. Yes I know it’s only necessary once. But the Lord has called me into a new season. A season I never anticipated. I’m not the same person I was when I started this race nine months. I’m not the same person I was when I was baptized 15 years ago. My desire is to begin this new season declaring before the world who my Father is.
I’m not sure I know what my future holds. Honestly, I think I have several unknowns waiting before me. And speaking truthfully, I’m terrified. I have the failures of my past screaming at me that I’ll never make it, that I’ll never be good enough. But in front of me, I have the greatest encourager telling me I don’t have to be good enough.
So I stand before the world, just me and Him, a little (read a lot) scared and unsure of what the future holds. But knowing that with Him all things are possible.
