I am
finishing up my four month debrief in Bucharest, Romania where our entire squad
of 50 had an awesome three days of discussions and worship. Worship always seems to be my favorite part
of debriefs because music is certainly one way I connect with God. This debrief in particular one song really
spoke to my heart and brought a new revelation.
There’s no place I’d rather be.
There’s no place I’d rather be,
than here in Your Love,
here in Your Love.
I love this
song, but at the beginning of debrief I sadly realized this statement wasn’t
true; wasn’t something I could proudly claim.
I realized there were deep places of my past I was craving, yearning and
still grasping for; some positive like I’d rather be in the arms of my earthly
father one more time to hear him say “it is going to be ok” and some negative
like I’d rather be feeling the physical and tangible love of my last
relationship. As I continued to explore
this shocking realization while lying face down on the floor during our worship
I discovered my inability to say with 100% certainty that there’s no place I’d
rather be than in the LOVE of God was a sign that I’m not all in with God. As many of you know I’ve baby stepped my way
into Christianity and into The World Race.
Four months into this amazing life changing journey I’m standing at the
edge dipping my toe but now is the time to just jump all in. It is time to take a risk and give my entire
heart, my entire life and my entire being over to God.
this revelation came to me during the beautiful Fall season here in Eastern
Europe. I’ve been amazed and in awe of leaves changing because this doesn’t
happen in Los Angeles. The vibrant
colors of Fall here in Romania have warmed my soul (even though it is freezing
outside) and brought me joy and comfort. As the leaves start their
transformation and a new season nears this vibrant color palette will be swept
clean to ready for a fresh start and a new beginning.
I too am experiencing a new beginning; a new season. Even though my life before
Christ was seemingly beautiful, I am ready to shed away the old and experience a new beauty
He has for me.
Remember not the former things, nor consider
the things of old. Behold I am doing a
new thing. Isaiah 43:18-19
The worship
song continues on to say…
Set a fire down in my soul,
that I can’t contain,
that I can’t control.
I want more of you God,
I want more of you God.
I do want
more of God and can now confidently say, there is no place I’d rather be than
in HIS love!!
