Spring semester of college started this Monday and I didn’t go to class. You might think skipping out on school would be easy…sleeping in, no homework, no strict professors. But for me it wasn’t that easy.
Ever since I can remember school has always been my “thing.” Im good at it, it comes naturally for me, and working my butt off for good grades was always something I was willing to do.
I was always known as the “smart girl” or the “honor roll student.” And to be honest, I liked how my classmates thought I knew everything and how they always asked me for help. My whole life, I let my status in school define me. I found my identity in my classes, my straight A honor roll, and my testing scores.
But I started my gap year early, deciding to just work until the months leading up to the race so I can save up money and take a break from the relentless school schedule.
And if you know me, or have been around me the last couple of months, you would think I was excited to be skipping school this semester. That’s only because I put up a good front.
Don’t get me wrong, I was burnt out on college and do enjoy working more hours, but letting go of school was still hard for me because it has been such a huge defining part of my life for nearly my whole life.
And who knows, maybe when I get back from the race next May, I’ll go back to school and finally pick a major. Maybe I’ll go on another mission trip across the world or maybe I’ll spend a year in just one country. I don’t know for sure, but I do know for sure that God has the answer, and I will wait to hear His voice.
And here’s one more thing I know for sure: my identity is in Christ and not in school. This year I’m taking a break from school. This year I am going to stop letting worldly things define me. I’m not going to try and rush to finish my AA before leaving. This year, I am going to take each day as it comes, moment by moment. This year, I am going to let God’s plan unfold without planning for failure. Because God’s plan never fails. And God’s plan doesn’t need any backups.
