If there is one thing God has shown me in my life over the past several years, it is that I am worth it to Him. I have put up a strong-willed fight against God at times; I have tested Him with my "rebelliousness" to see just how much He would take until He'd finally give up and say "you're not worth this." I put up this fight not just with God but with other people as well. I'd go all emo-crazy just to see how much a friend would fight to keep me in their lives. Sad to admit that I hurt a lot of innocent people because of this behavior, including myself. But it was my (unhealthy) passive-aggressive way of asking them, "am I worth it to you? am I worth fighting for?" I have struggled with the answer to that question since my childhood, since I adopted the lie that I wasn't worth it. But I never realized I was even asking that question until recently, within the last six months.
God, in His immeasurable and endless patience has been slowly answering that question for me. "Yes beloved…you are worth it. My Daughter, I will never stop fighting for you. I will never stop pursuing you. I will never stop loving you. You are worth it to Me."
It took a lot of time and suffering to go through for that truth to finally sink in, and it is still sinking in. But the process was sooo worth it. Learning (and choosing) to believe that truth has healed me in so many ways, and has transformed my life and my outlook on my future. It has changed the way I perceive God, and my role in our relationship… It has strengthened and deepened my intimacy with my Creator.
Maybe you're struggling with the same lie. "Am I worth it? Does anyone think I'm worth the effort? Am I worth the fight? Am I worth putting up with, with all my baggage and imperfections?"
BELOVED, allow me to be the voice of God for a moment…
YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!
God, throughout history, has been telling His creation, "You are worth it to me. You are worth the fight, you are worth any pain I must endure to be with you. You are worth it!"
Rest in that truth…learn to believe it and then once you do, ask yourself this question…
Is He?
I can assure you from my own experience… God IS worth it… He IS worth the struggles and the suffering, He is worth the sacrifices we make in order to follow Him. He is WORTH pursuing! He is WORTH fighting for. He will never give up on you even if you've given up on Him. I have learned that from my own personal experience. He is so good, and His love heals us. His love and truth set us FREE! He gave His life and conquered death, so that WE might be free…free from the lies and the abuse – whether self-inflicted or brought on by others. He is shouting to the world "YOU ARE WORTH IT TO ME!"
I leave in three weeks for the World Race… There's a world out there that I'm about to encounter… a world I've never experienced… a world filled with pain and feelings of worthlessness… I strongly believe that the timing of this revelation was no coincidence, that God brought this realization to my own heart at this exact time…right before I'm about to embark on this 11 month journey, for a specific reason. This message wasn't just for me, or for you…but for them. Because in eccense He is telling me "THEY are worth it to Me… I am sending you out to tell them that."
And so I go…because I am worth it. Because you are worth it. Because they are worth it…. Because
HE IS WORTH IT.
