I am dating myself.
Living on an all girls team, has been a true blessing.Topics have been full of vulnerability and truth. Walking into new identities and learning about who we are in Christ, what it truly means to be a daughter of the Kings of Kings. As we are learning this, the end of the race is drawing near, re-enry to American society is creeping up.
My team leader, Hannah Buchanan states during our team time “I am pretty much dating myself, figuring out who I am and what I like, it’s kinda fun” For those of you who do not understand race lingo, team time consists of seven of us coming together in prayer, talking about our day, the good, bad, the ugly. Some are full of laughter, where our stomachs hurt, while other times we leave crying like toddlers.
Recently I feel similar to Hannah I feel like I am dating myself. Figuring out what I like and don’t in this world. I found myself in Budapest in the H&M just staring, not knowing what my style is what I want to wear anymore. Do I like this because other people like it, or do I like it? Honestly I walked in and out of the same H&M four times in one day, finally at last leaving with a plain blue loose fitting t-shirt.
It comes back to the basic question “Who am I?”
I am a beloved daughter of the highest King. His love consumes me and purses me forever. That is all that matters! Thats it, its that simple. I feel like myself for the first time! The influence of the world, doesn’t have a hold on me anymore. If I wanted to wear sparkly pants to the next gathering of my friends at home, tough luck for them if they don’t like. (don’t fret I don’t even like sparkles) Point being, I have no desire to conform, and every desire to be myself, more now than ever.
Two months are still ahead of me, and I hope that I walk in obedience to the Lord, being the best version of myself. Not striving, yet humbly seekingthe Lord daily. That’s all He asks of us. To be His son or daughter and delight in His unconditional and eternal love.
My simple blue t-shirt. (Oh and Tonya is creeping in the back)
