This week has been a whirlwind to say the least. There have been many highs and lows, almost like a roller coaster. One thing I have been reminded is that no matter how high or how low God never lets go, He is constant throughout the entire roller coaster. When I couldn’t give anymore, God gave me strength, clarity, and love. I felt Him even when I was overjoyed and overwhelmed equally. I am amazed by His love for me, not ever letting me ago. Even though I have read over and over about God’s love for me, there is nothing like those moments of clarity when I can feel Him as if he is standing right next to me guiding me.
As I am reading my traveling packing list, the words “ 2 person tent, don’t skimp on a sleeping pad, this is your bed for the next 11 months” were written across the screen on my computer. I knew exactly what I signed up for, but I think today it finally hit me, 11 months. I began to think about how much could change in 11 months. I pictured myself being scooped up by a giant hand, removed from my family and friends and then placed somewhere to create a new life for 11 months. In next few moments, I processed and reflected, then I found comfort in a chorus of a song that was playing “never let me go, never let me go” God is never going to give me more than I can handle, He is never going to let me go. He is constant, never shaken, always with me.
“Trust “is the word I tried to teach the kids at my job, and how much we need to trust God with our lives. I set up the trust game, where kids had to fall backward and I had to catch them. I asked each kid do you trust me, and each on replied “yes”, with grins on their faces. Majority trusted me, and it was easy for them to simply fall back and let me catch them. It seems like I need to be reminded of this more than the kids. J
Needless to say, later today I found myself looking at the smallest tents ever made, and the thinnest looking sleeping mats, and I laugh and smile as I look forward to the journey God has planned for me, trusting whole heartedly.
With love,
Monique
