I read a devotional that was perfect for how I was feeling today.
“When you are feeling overwhelmed by your circumstances, take time to listen to Me. Hear Me saying, “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
Listening to Me when you’re feeling stressed required discipline and trust. Your racing thoughts make it hard to hear My gentle whisper. Ask the Holy Spirit to calm your mind so that you can hear My voice. Remember that I – the Prince of Peace- am with you at all times.
I am not only with you; I am also in your circumstances. Moreover, I am in control of everything that happens to you. Although I am never the author of evil, I am fully able to use bad things for good. This does not remove your suffering, but it does redeem it- infusing it with meaning. So if you are in a storm of difficulties, I say to you, “take courage. It is I.” Search for signs of My abiding Presence in your current situation. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart. (- Jesus Today)
As some of you may know I have been on and off with sharp pain in my side. I thought it was the food I’ve been eating but I’m pretty sure Europe’s food is much different than Central American food. I get discouraged not being able to properly translate my pain-symptoms to a foreign doctor. I’ve been to several doctors and they all tell me the same thing, “here’s pain medicine if it doesn’t go away come back.” It leaves me so frustrated to the point I want to cry. I’ve really been put in my test of trusting in God this past week. Instead of crying and getting angry because they haven’t found anything (not that I want something to be wrong but I don’t want to keep feeling this pain) I had to bite my tongue and run to God for answers. I’m asking God to show me what’s going on. I’m trusting that whatever I need to do (even if it’s something I don’t want to necessarily do) God is going to show me. Instead of me talking about trusting in God this is where I literally have to put my thoughts aside and trust in God, and do what’s right for myself.
So I’m writing this so my followers can keep me in your prayers. Thank you so much
