What does it mean to be sick? Well, I am here in Guatemala about to end my ministry Wednesday Feb 26, 2014. I have been sick a lot this month. I do not want to look back and be like what the heck was Guatemala all about, being sick almost the entire month. It’s easy to get distracted and complain about not feeling well. This month has been tough for me but such a learning and growing experience as well. Antigua I received some good ministry and walked through freedom. I have such a better understanding on the Lords love for me. I also got baptized by my team at a beautiful lake called Lago De Atitlan with volcanoes around me. (What could get better than that?) when I was able to do ministry this month I worked with a school full of children from all ages. That taught me patience. I also got to work in a field and help build a road, that taught me the importance of communication with others on my team. I got to pray for a man with no legs, that reminded me why I am really here. It’s not really about me. It is about Jesus. Even though circumstances may throw you for a loop (being sick) it is still about Jesus. Something I read that changed my perspective this month. “To experience the joy of My presence, you need to sit quietly, focusing your thoughts on Me. Say no to plans and problems as they try to creep into your mind. Say yes to Me- to My Joy and Peace, My unfailing Love.” -Jesus.
Even though I’ve been sick and have felt slightly useless which is easy to get discouraged about, The Lord has made use of my time being sick. I’ve learned so much about The Lord and about myself. I want to be more like Jesus. I desire to see others and love them as Jesus does. I desire to see and love myself as He sees and loves me. He is breaking my heart for what breaks His, and that’s a scary prayer, but wow! The beauty I see in it all. I’ve gotten to know people better, I’m learning to live in community and how important it is to be honest and respect my brothers and sisters in Christ. The people I’m serving with are beautiful people who love The Lord. Overall this month thus far has been a great learning experience. Even through my sickness and being in a bed all day Jesus has never left my side. I’ve learned the true definition of spending one on one time with my love, Jesus.
“Because of the nature of time, there is only one direction to travel, and that is forward.”
Psalms 18:28 “You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light.”
Like I said it’s easy to get discouraged but the word had so much encouragement for me this month.
