“It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” Deuteronomy 31:8
When I saw the date of when I am leaving the country for my missions trip my heart dropped. It hit me and it hit me hard. To know an actual date that I’d be leaving was intimidating…
All I wanted to do was run away and hide somewhere for a day or two. So many thoughts racing at once, maybe I am not ready, maybe I am not good enough for this trip, I have so much to do and such little time to do it, how the heck will I raise all this money in time before I leave… All these thoughts just running through my brain overwhelming me. I just took a seat and cried. I am not really sure why i was feeling so emotional. I know it is normal to feel nervous for such a life changing event that is about to take place in my life.
I was reminded by God that I did ask for all of this. I have been praying to be put out of my comfort zone. I asked Him to lead me into the missions field, I sure enough asked Him to break me down piece by piece to really learn to rely on Him and only Him for my needs. I am human, it’s not easy living in the year 2013 as a 21 year old living for The Lord. It is so easy to blend in with everyone and not be that light for God. I have been praying for a while now to be the woman God has created me to be. I just wanted to go back to what I am comfortable with because it is just so easy! But in all honesty I just am not happy living comfortably, when I was born to be different.
I want to live for God, I need to live for Him. He completes me! This is my dream, to travel the world helping people and sharing God’s love with them. It is my passion to serve and help!
This is a lesson right before my eyes and it is time to actually start following through with what my words have been saying. I have to trust God. I am going to for once by sitting down, shutting up and listening. Trusting that God knows what is way better for my life than what Margaret thinks is good. And the beauty of all of this is it’s just faith. Faith to trust that God knows whats best. I mean I have tried it my way a bunch of times and it never really worked out…
I believe that God is going to guide me and it will not be a walk in the park. Nothing ever is in life, but in the end when it is all said and done, it will be beyond worth it with the faith I had to believe that God knows what is best for me.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6
