It’s
a process…
There
is a balance…
It
takes time…
In
all of my arrogance, I thought I would be able to come home and live
just like I did on the race and without problem…
I
actually thought this would be easy…
I
thought people would automatically see the changed
me….
I
had this perfect little picture in my head of how things would be as
I returned home. I was disheartened when my first week wasn’t
identical to the fantasy land I was entertaining in my head.
I
spent a good amount of time with God prior to my homecoming on what
things would look like. I asked Him what the next season
would be. I asked Him for a theme,
something I could prepare myself for. I was excited
for what was before me. I was ready
for the challenges ahead.
It was time to come home and I thought
I had all my ducks in a
row.
Home
caught be by surprise. Not only was the perfect little picture in my
head a fantasy, but it turned out to be a lot harder than I had
thought.
God
told me that I was going to have to make a lot of choices
when I got home….
I
have the choice to engage.
I
have the choice to be intentional.
I
have the choice to embrace
reality.
I
have the choice to enjoy.
I
have the choice to wake
up every morning and step
into the WOMAN God showed me how to be.
These
choices are anything but easy.
Obedience
isn’t always easy.
Putting
aside your pride and
selfish desires isn’t
easy.
But,
God called me home. He called me to be with my family. The harsh
truth is that I spent the majority of my 24 years living to please
myself. I never took the time to really get to know my family… any
of them- immediate and distant. My hope is that this will change.
Over
the past year, I learned to be intentional.
I learned how to love
people hard and well.
I learned how to serve
joyfully. I
learned how to lean
on the Holy Spirit’s leading.
Now
it is time to do that here. No matter how hard it may be… no matter
if I feel like it or not… GOD
CALLED ME HERE.
I
just have to remember that….
Adjusting
home IS a process.
There
has to be a balance
of resting and
engaging.
It
takes time
for people to see the change.
