Cambodia
Cambodia was a month of crazy traveling. I, along with Mike and Noe, the two other new squad leaders, traveled around with the old squad leaders to get a feel for our new roles. We visited 5 different teams which meant we were basically on a bus every two days. I absolutely loved all the moving around. I loved seeing all the teams in completely different living environments. I loved spending time with the teams and encouraging them in what I saw the Lord doing. Overall, it was a good month seeing how the Lord was working in everyone.
For me, however, it’s a different story. At the end of the month, I realized that I had basically been asleep. I was awake enough to see what the Lord was doing in the people around me, but asleep to what He wanted to do in me. I fell into the busyness of my new role. I let anything and everything take precedence over my relationship with the Lord. I am so thankful for the men with whom I serve, for calling that out in me.
Our last night in Cambodia I woke up. I realized that I controlled that month and spent a good amount of time talking to Jesus about it. The enemy would have loved nothing more than for me to sit in guilt and waste more of my time, but I chose to accept grace. I am a daughter of the King who loves me no matter what I do. No matter how many times I try to take things back in my hands, He still loves me and forgives me. God’s grace has been more real to me in the past couple of weeks. Not only do I believe He shows me grace, but I believe He wants me to show myself grace. And so I did! I didn’t wallow in my crap. I didn’t give in to feeling guilty. I merely asked Jesus to forgive me and I handed my schedule back over to Him.
Phenom Pehn Sihanoukville
Kampot Kampong Thom
