Since day one I have had multiple people come up to me and compliment me on my bravery, or tell me that they could never do something like Gap Year. I think it’s time to let the secret out; I am unqualified. Based on the worlds standards:
- I do not have the financial support
- I am not brave enough
- I am too much of a diva
- I can count on one hand how many times I have spoken in front of a crowd
- I have too much going for me to fall a year behind in college
- I won’t be able to communicate with the people I am trying to reach
But the thing is, God does not need me to meet a checklist of “qualifications”, he just wants me to say yes. In other words, God does not call the equipped, he equips the called.
Christianity is not about a laundry list of nos. Sometimes it is easy for me to focus on what I can’t do, instead of trusting God to fulfill his will through me despite my flaws and imperfections. Many people seem to believe that the goal of faith is to eliminate risk; LIES. Faith is a risky business. Faith means taking a risk, and trusting that God will use your circumstances to reveal his glory. Throughout the Bible there are countless stories of unqualified people used by God to do the impossible. Moses had speech impairment, David was short (compared to Goliath), Job lost everything, Paul and Silas were thrown in prison; and God used all of their hindrances for his glory.
I don‘t have it all together but I am willing to trust. I’m sure there will be times where I will have to face some obstacles that may seem impossible to get around, but my God specializes in impossible missions. I am here as a vessel to be used, so take me out into the deep. There’s no turning back now.
