I am a sinner.
I screw up.
Regularly.
I want to hide my sin.
& present myself as a "good christian".
Sometimes I think that by hiding my sin from others it goes away and didn't happen.
I shut it out of my mind.
No one knows so nothing is wrong.
God doesn't know.
What a big. fat. lie.
I have a hard time accepting grace & forgivness for myself.
Others can have and deserve those things.
But not me.
Especially when I regularly make the same mistakes.
I feel like a hypocrite when I notice sins in others that I struggle with myself.
Forgiving others no matter what is hard.
Forgiving myself is even harder.
I believe the lies from the enemy.
I am not good enough.
I am not smart enough.
I am not strong enough.
I sin too much.
I can't be used.
But I am REDEEMED!
God has saved me!
My sins are as far from me as the east is from the west.
I know these truths.
But sometimes I have a hard time accepting these truths in my life because I feel like I don't deserve them.
It's easy for me to let go of things others have done to me.
But I hold my sins close.
& use them as proof when Satan tells me I am not good enough.
I justify his words for him.
But this isn't the life God wants for me.
This isn't the reason He sent his son.
He has not given me a spirit of guilt but one of hope.
In Christ I am a new creation!
He makes me good enough.
He makes me smart enough.
He makes me strong enough.
God chooses to use me.
Because me identity is found in Him and not in this world.
"You make me righteous.
You make me new.
There's no condemnation.
I'm found in You.
Now I stand wholly before your throne.
I worship you Jesus & You alone!
"Praise God for His son!
Jesus Christ, the holy one.
Lamb of God.
My Lord!"
