Weeks ago, Month 7 I was asking God “What’s next?” It’s been the reoccurring question that has been tossed around throughout the squad. As the world race is coming to a close just in a few short months. I wanted to have some idea of what I could do by the time I got home whether that meant getting a new job, figuring out school. But let’s be real. We can not plan our own lives because God already had my life planned out even before I was born.
A few days had passed by…
As I was laying in the poky green grass in Laos during our teams quiet time that we did every morning in the park near our hostel. God was revealing to me the call that he has for my life.
I felt God calling me to start a non profit ministry in Africa for orphans/street kids and girls who have been trafficked in the sex trade sometime after the race.
A non-profit ministry that redeems the love that was lost for orphans and girls who have been trafficked and to get them into a safe place that they can feel the love that Christ has for them and call home. I want to redeem the love that they have missed for so long. I want to redeem what women have lost who have been raped 32,000 in the 13 years of their life and they see that as “Love” because that’s all they have had their whole life. But these men convince the girls that it is love. No one should ever have to go through this in their life. Or orphans who have been neglected, forgotten, abandoned, abused by their families who should be the ones that would love them the most. And take those orphans into a home instead of them ending up on the streets and end up working in the bars and selling themselves just to provide for their needs.
I have had this desire for a long while but never felt a confidence in myself that I could do it. That it would become reality one day. So I basically just put it on the back burner and never really thought about it again. Because I felt like it was never going to happen. God has been preparing the way and guiding me through it all in this journey of life. In Thailand he showed me His heart for Adoption and how it’s becoming the heart of mine as well. But not exactly knowing what that meant at that time. But God has shown me more confidence in myself and in the plans that he has in store for me. It’s a big dream of mine, a dream that once died and has been brought to life once again in the most beautiful way. I know full well that I can not do all of this on my own but that I so desperately NEED Christ to walk me through it and have faith and trust that he will provide everything in His timing. It terrifies me at times but at the very same time it excites me. I am excited to pursue something that was laid on my heart years ago, to live a life so dependent on Christ for direction, A life that stretches me more than I have ever imagined. To love on children more than I am even capable of doing. It’s going to be hard. But it’ll be all so worth it.
There’s nothing that I want more than to love on African children day and night.
It blows me away everyday I think about this desire that God has constantly been showing me and molding me into the woman that he sees fit for this opportunity even if he can do it all on His own. He has allowed and called me, Laura Quam to be a little part of this. It’s my duty as a Christian to love on the least of these and follow the call that God has for me but I can not do this on my own.
~ I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. John 14:18 ~
How can I love children so much that I haven’t even seen, met or knew that those would be the children that God would call me to care for, to educate, to love, to be a mother to them? But knowing that there’s children out there that need me. I may never have my own children but there’s children in this world who need a mother. There’s children who are long to be tucked in for bed, someone to be there for them. I am eager to love them just like how God intended “Love” to look like. I guess this is how a mother feels when she carries her baby in her womb for 9 months just longing, waiting to meet that little bundle of joy.
God doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called.
So basically to help me prepare for this life long journey that God has so evidently placed on my heart to do. I applied to do “Center of Global Action” (CGA) with the organization with Adventures. I originally was considering applying for the one that started in January of next year and 4 months long, but as I was about to apply I felt a nudge that I needed to apply to the one in September and for 8 months. I am constantly praying about guidance and such for CGA and whether that would be the best way to begin this next season of my life.
Prayer requests:
~ The interview for CGA will go well and smoothly.
~ For direction and wisdom with this next calling that God has called me on
