"It's going to be wild, it's going to be great , it's going to be full of Him"
For as long as I can remember, one of my favorite Bible verses has been Psalm 37:4: “Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart.” I used to believe it meant that if I did what the Lord asked of me, followed His commandments. He would grant all my desires and make my dreams come true the way i want them to. Today, this is still one of my most favorite passages of Scripture in the bible, but I have learned to interpret it in a completely different way now. It is not about God making my dreams come true but about God changing my dreams into His dreams for my life.
That verse speaks to me more now than ever before.
God really has been speaking to me on what this verse really means.
While being on the world race God really has been giving me a huge Heart for missions more than i did before more than I have ever had a desire to be a full time missionary. I know that it's something that God has placed in my heart and I am willing to wherever. Whether that means moving to Africa to start an orphanage with Lacey and loving on orphans, apply to get a paid job somewhere overseas to help me pay for expenses for a living, moving to Thailand to see about volunteering with love acts or something involving with sex trafficking victims, be a missionary in India, or anything else that God has planned that I don't even know yet because I don't need to know right now. I still have time, there's no rush God will reveal it in his timing. I am willing to do whatever wherever God has planned format life.
I'm on world race which hasn't quite sunk in quite yet. I haven't had that moment where I'm absolutely blown away that I'm in another country. Because it just feels like the norm since I've already lived in Europe for about 5 months. It may hit me when I leave Europe, but I have no idea what life will be when I leave Europe.
God has completely turned my world upside down. God has changed my heart in these past few weeks. When I found out that we would be doing Unsung Heroes this month in Serbia I got really excited, but that was before I really knew what this month would look like because I never experienced it. Honestly for the first week of doing unsung heroes I was disappointed, discouraged about it all. Nothing was happening, we were waiting and waiting, we were in the hostel looking for contacts on day to day hour to hour. Something about the first few days made me realize how much that is not what I do. I don't like research. I'd rather go out from the four walls of the hostel and meet people, see the area that we are staying, do something practical for someone but instead our responsibility was to research and find contacts this month. I knew that, just my stubborn side got ahold of me brought me to a low place. I knew I needed to do it and with a joyful heart. I needed to focus on what AIM is wanting us to do. We are ambassorders of AIM for this month and we are ambassoroders of Christ for life. I need to do everything unto God. I am serving the God of the universe and I need to glorify God in everything I do.
I began to have doubt. I wasn't trusting God. I was feeling discouraged. Because nothing was happening.
And then a God moment happened right when I was loosing hope. God told me "I got this just patiently wait" it was loud and clear. I heard God. I have been so desperately, crying out to him, and waiting to hear God's voice.
We began to make progress. Contacts were replying to our emails. Figuring out times when we can meet and such. Long story short, God showed up, he was always there he was just teaching us patience and revealed it all in His timing not ours. We were in contact with a few churches and after looking on google maps we found out that they were both 5 minutes away from the hostel were staying at but needing to leave that hostel because it was over our world race budget. At that point we were preparing ourselves that we'd finally be staying in our tents but One of the church members offered us to stay at the church for almost week. Praise Him! The cost was within our budget, freezer, showers, beds and etc. it was a huge blessing! We began to talk with the church members and began to continue the networking to find more. The two churches became very close to us very fast. They were both so hospitable to us our team.
Thus far world race is much different than I expected it to be.
• I expected to live in my tent from day 1 and God gave me a room
• I expected to sleep on my mat and God gave me a bunk bed
• I expected to have bucket showers and God gave me real shower
• I expected to have limited Internet and God has provided free wifi wherever we go for the most part (blessing and huge distraction) whether its in our hostel or a 5 minute walk to the tavern.
And the list could go on, and on.
I'm thankful for everything that God has provided for us in many different ways in this journey. God continues to blow my mind with everything that he has done for me and my entire squad even when we separated he is working and it's absolutely beautiful to experience it with fellow sisters and brothers.
