No one ever said that this would be easy. No matter how many blogs I read about past world racers training camp experiences. I never got a full glimpse of what it could be like, all of it is different in one or another. But I did build so many expectations for training camp weeks beforehand. I was ready as I ever will be for this wild week. I knew that this week was just the beginning to a very wild ride with my HEAVENLY FATHER.
The day we were heading to training camp on Saturday that I felt God just taking the expectations that I had for training camp away from my mind. So I can really experience God in a new way.
I cant put God in box. I didn't want to limit what God will do in me in this week of training camp. He completely stretched me physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.
Right then and there the expectations I did have were gone, I did have a few expectations for God. I wanted to feel God in a way I never felt before. I wanted to experience God in a whole new way like never before.
Everything that I never imagined that I would experience. It happened. God threw my expectations out the window.
Everything about the first few days of training camp were wild. I saw people experiencing God in a way that I so strived the desire to experience God in my life.
I felt forgotten, left out, abandoned, and alone. I couldn't feel God's presence as much as I pressed into God. Why was I the only one feeling like this? I'm clearly not abandoned because God is still right there. Maybe I just wasn't completely all there.
"Where are you God? Can you see me? Can you see me Lord? "
I began to cry out to my HEAVENLY FATHER. Sharing my heart because that is what he wants from us. I told Him exactly how I was feeling. I told Him I needed him and I want a far deeper relationship. I wanted something more. As I poured out my heart to my father. I could feel His presence, as I worshipped I could feel Him. It was a beautiful place to be in. I was confident in what I was feeling & in what God was doing in my life, In the struggles that I was facing will change my life.
Throughout the entire week God kept telling me " I will give you what you need not what you want"
The world race isn't my journey, it's God's journey. I'm just the hands and feet of my heavenly father. God isn't finished with me yet, He has a purpose, a plan for me in this journey.Praying for the countries and people I will be in contact with in this year. That God will soften their hearts to really be open to what is being placed on our hearts to bring to the people. Join me in prayer!
