Today I feel so lost and invisible
Lately I've been feeling like I'm nothing to some people. To people that I may have called friends. But where are they now? What did I do? If life is like this when i'm still here then I'm so thrilled to see how life is going to be for me after I get back from being gone for a year. I like to think of this as something positive. That God is preparing me for a great life-changing adventure. Even if it's absolutely difficult right now. And I'm honestly really confused on what to do about a situation. Feeling like an ant that nobody sees me when I'm around since I'm so small. And people just stepping on me to hurt me whether they know it or not.
…but just being reminded all over again that all of those negative thoughts is just the enemy telling me lies, and trying to get into my head. So I feel like a failure as a friend, a sister, a daughter. But those aren't truths, those words aren't from God. They are lies.
God has really been tugging on my heart to let things go, to let a friendship go? That's not me. But God is just changing me to be a "A new Laura" Letting things go is something that's been hard for me all my life. Something that I have really ignored throughout my life and just holding onto things that I shouldn't be holding onto. Realizing more everyday that I need to give everything to God. Sometimes it may seem hard to let things go like friendships but sometimes it just needs to happen for a time. Who knows what the future holds. I've always been the type of person that friendships mean so much to me and telling myself that they will last forever. But sometimes they don't for a time but the friendship may come in the future. And just really learning to accept that.
God is the one who speaks truth into my life, I can't let the enemy really control how I feel, or able to put me down at times.
"Friendships are either a blessing or a lesson"
God thinks I matter
God thinks I'm enough
God thinks I'm beautiful
He won't ever leave me no matter what. He loves me the way I am, and that won't every change. It amazes me everyday that he loves me personally the same way he loves millions of other people around the world. And he allows me to go to Him when i have struggles, worries and just everything in my life. He doesn't ignore me, he is willing to listen to me no matter what time of day it is. However many times I fail Him, His love never fails.
Just some random thoughts for the day..
