For people who don't know I am the youngest out of 5 siblings. I have three older brothers and one sister. Growing up my sister and I fought A LOT. We would argue about almost everything. People back home actually never knew the raw and realness of our relationship. From the outside it may have looked like we had it together but in all reality we never did.
I always compared myself to my sister. I was always competing with her. It was hard growing up in school because I was always known as "Carissa's little sister." At that time I was so jealous and envious of her because people were so drawn to her, she is so outgoing, gorgeous of course, and so lovable.
Growing up I would hear" I just wish you two could get along. I pray one day you will be able to be just like my sister and I." It always broke my heart hearing those words from my Mom, but I knew for her it was harder to see both of her daughters that she loves so much never getting along, where fighting was normal.
Mom and Dad thank you for praying, and praying, and praying. Thank you for never giving up on something you knew that could be so beautiful. Thank you for the faith and hope you had with Carissa and I. I'm here writing this to the both of you and of course you Carissa. I love you!
When I left for the World Race it was a slow process, of building this relationship I never had with my sister. I realized being gone all I wanted to do was talk with her, I missed her and was so interested in what was going on in her life back home since I left. I could see the Lord starting this process, but that process first started with me.
Carissa was there the whole time waiting for me. Our Father was waiting for me. I never realized it was me. He shattered comparison in me, He tore down walls I never knew I had up towards her. He shattered jealousy, and always being envious towards her. He said Kylee I make everything beautiful in its time.
Last month, He told me all of this and I begin seeing this process that was happening. He was making this relationship beautiful and in order to do that He had to work things out with me first. He told me last month when I get home I'm going to live with Carissa and I will actually know what it's like to live with my sister because when we lived together we actually "didn't live together." He said You have something so precious with your sister when you get home and honestly it brings me to tears, I never thought this day would come!
Carissa you are a beautiful and gorgeous woman of God. You have always been an example for me. You have so much wisdom from the Lord. His light is always shining through you and your smile. People are so attracted to the Jesus in you! You have gifts waiting from our Father, arms open wide to receive. Keep letting Him use you to bring Kingdom to Earth. Girl He loves you so much and so do I! You are my best friend, I miss you with all my heart. I'm praying for you always!
