I know you want to know exactly what I do on a day to day.
What life is like when home is so far away.
But the reality is,
it’s hard to decipher between what to share and what to keep to me.
It’s more than what I do,
it’s what I see.
What I see
and what it does to me;
what He is teaching me.
The person I am…
I’ve lost my identity.
I’m learning who He created me to be,
but first I have to lose everything.
Everything I once considered to comprise me.
I prayed.
I cried.
I begged.
Soften me,
make me,
mold me
into exactly who You intended me to be.
I didn’t know becoming me
meant I would lose everything.
Everything I once considered to be me,
is not who You created me to be.
You created me to be a reflection of You,
but that means everything else I must lose.
My day to day
is a little of serving others,
but mostly,
losing the world.
Losing the parts of the world I have identified as me.
Because the world is not You,
the world is not who you created me to be.
You created me to be a reflection of You
and to reflect You
I must lose all of me.
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this:
to look after the orphans and widows
AND
to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.
James 1:27
