If I’m being honest, there were many things that happened at training camp that I am not comfortable talking about. I get all choked up on what to say when people ask me how training camp was; I ramble and interject “I just don’t know how to explain it” about every 30 seconds. But the reality of my discomfort in talking about these things is, yet again, fear (see part 1). I am fearful of the reactions I will get if I am completely honest with people about my experiences. I know that some people will think I am crazy, others may think my craziness is stemming from an even crazier organization. But if there was one thing I learned at training camp it was to take my fear captive and allow the peace of Jesus to take control. So as I sit here in the peace of my Savior, I am going to open up about my experiences at training camp.
I have always believed in spiritual warfare and have of course experienced it to an extent, especially in my time overseas. However, I had no idea that it could be so real and so powerful right here in the States.
I felt fear take over my body emotionally and physically. Through constant prayer and surrender I was healed. I saw God win. I FELT God win.
Friends, in North Georgia less than two weeks ago I saw a squad mate be freed from a demon. I heard the demon shrieking as we prayed for the manifestation of the Holy Spirit. I saw God win.
I felt the presence of His angels in a room with me. I felt the strength He gave me, His strength, that made me feel able to lift a house. It was clear to me that God had won.
I heard from God. Every single day. He spoke to me, He showed me things. Sometimes He gave me only a word or two, other times He gave me more than I am able to explain. God is real and He is tangible. He will always win.
I experienced the presence of the Holy Spirit in ways that I did not know were possible. He manifested Himself to me in complete joy and laughter one night. Having no idea why I was laughing, or able to control it…I laughed and laughed and laughed. I was so full of joy. God had won.
To say I experienced God in an entirely new way would be a complete understatement. God used TC to completely wreck every part of who I am and to begin to rebuild me into the woman He wants me to be. Not a single day has gone by that I have not been captivated by the work the Lord has begun in me and through me. Everything is different.
Even through witnessing spiritual warfare in such a raw and tangible way, I have never been more assured and comforted by the fact that our Father has already won the war.
‘”He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” He who was seated on the throne said, "I am making everything new!" Then he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.”’
-Revelation 21:4-5
My sweet, sweet loving Father. Thank you a million times over for the work you are doing within me. Thank you for setting fire to my soul; an uncontrollable fire. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being real, God. I love you.
Love,
Kara
