We haven't even left for the race yet and I am already idolizing it. I have already made this trip about ME instead of the LORD. I have spent countless hours trying to find the coolest, cheapest gear; researching which items to bring that are “must haves” (like hammocks, special shoes, and legit accessories). And today I was all of a sudden overcome by a sensation of fear and doubt in the Lord. I began to worry about support like I never have before, completely stepping away from trust in Him and His power and love. After a day full of prayer, phone conversations, and accountability, it became very clear to me that I had done everything in my power to make The World Race about Kara Bryant; to make it about looking cool in photos on the field, visiting awesome places, and coming back with the sweetest stories. I had somehow managed to turn a surrendering decision into a worldly, selfish adventure. In my struggle for control and comfort, I got lost. I was reminded of my incapability to raise my support on my own power and strength. However, that is just the beginning of it. I am completely unable to find real stability and comfort outside of Jesus. No good deals on a pair of shoes can change that, nor can the most stylish hiking gear. I am so grateful that the Lord has exposed this sin to me now, rather than during, or worse, after the race. Clearly I need more Jesus, and amazingly, He wants more and more of me.
Sweet Jesus, thank you. Thank you for bringing me peace in a way that only you can. Thank you for rescuing me in every sense of the word, and being patient with me. Help me to make my life less about me, and more about you. I love you, I love you, I love you.
Love, Kara
