Recently I’ve had a lot going on. Some stuff I was dealing with in my personal life, work, serving in my church, Easter, fundraising, discipleship and I’m sure I’m forgetting something. The point is that I’ve been bogged down lately. Life isn’t going to get any easier over the next six months before I leave. If anything, I’m sure it will get more chaotic. I’ve been fighting and struggling, what seem like every day. Mostly with myself about everything. Am I good enough to do what God wants me to do? Will I be able to raise the money I need before I leave? How am I going to do my next fundraiser? What is my next fundraiser? All these and about a thousand more questions I would ask myself daily. As most of you know, I started a new job recently. It’s been really difficult for me too. I’m not use to sitting at a desk all day. To be honest, it drives me nuts! It’s somewhat stressful as well. People rely on me to help them close loans. All the stress and worrying has been weighing on me. “God, please help me with this!” I would say. But it didn’t seem like God was answering me. I felt like I was on the phone and didn’t know if God was still there or not. Then one morning I woke up and as soon as I opened my eyes these words rang through my head. “If you want to see God move, you have to be motivated.” I sat there puzzled for a little bit. “What do you mean? I am motivated!” God answered me but now I was confused! Over the next two days I kept thinking about what God meant. I mean, I’m so motivated to go on this trip that I could leave today!! Why couldn’t this be easy!? Then I sat down with a friend and had dinner. We talk about recent events in life and what not. And I told him about how I had been struggling lately. Then after talking for a while he said, “Maybe you need to put the money you’ve been saving in your Worldrace account.” “Is there a reason you haven’t put it in there yet?” he asked. “Maybe God wants you to be all in. To not keep that back as a just incase kind of thing.” Here’s the thing, I never told him what God spoke to me! It wasn’t that I wasn’t sure if I was going to go or not but I was holding back some as far as trust went. Then it all became clear to me. This was a test!!! “Are you still motivated? Are you going to trust me? Are you motivated enough to do your part and let me do Mine?” “Will you show me you’re motivated by giving me everything you’ve saved?” God asked. As soon as I got home I got online and put everything I had saved towards my trip! Then I realized that I had $6,400 so far!!! It blew me away! Seeing how much money I’ve been able to raise thanks to everyone who’s donated and with what I’ve saved made my goals seem reachable. I didn’t feel like I was running a race in the same place anymore! Needless to say, I’m MOTIVATED!!! Now more than ever!!! Thanks again to everyone who’s helped me get this far!!! I’ve been set on fire! And it’s a fire that won’t be put out!!!!
