Christmas day. A time to spend with your family and friends. A day to give and receive presents because we were all given the greatest gift on this day, Jesus Christ. This Christmas is a little different for me though. You see, i’ve already had Christmas. My dad always has Christmas on Christmas Eve and my mom had to work today so we also had Christmas yesterday. So this year, i wont be celebrating Christmas with my family. I woke up and I started to feel lonely. For some reason it just hit me all at once. I just couldn’t help but start to feel like I was completely alone. I started to think about how I would be entering in to the new year alone again. How i’m alway alone during the holidays. Then I started to think about all my past relationships. How they never worked out for one reason or another. Then I started to think of all the things I would have done differently. How I would have tried harder. Or what all I could have done to make each one of them work. All the different things I would have changed. And then I realized something. Next year, I would be in another country during Christmas. But, if some of my past relationships would have work, I may not be going on the Woldrace. There was one relationship where we had dated before and were on the verge of getting back together when I applied for The Race. When I told her about it, that was the end of that. If we would have gotten back together I don’t know if I would have been able to leave her for a year. There was someone else that I thought about that was just before that one. We had gotten close and then it all had fallen apart. I had liked her for years. If we would have started dating, I wouldn’t have even applied for The Race! I realized that there were so many other failed relationships that not only lead me to The Race, but also to God! Both of the big life changing experiences that I had came from broken relationship!!! One was a girl I liked and the other was a friendship. Both lead to me almost dying. Both times God saved me. Then it finally hit me like a ton of bricks! God is always there! He will always be there even when no one else is. And every failed relationship happened because they weren’t part of God’s plan for me at the time. Because if I would have had a great relationship, I may have settled down. What God has for me is an adventure that wouldn’t work if I had settled down with someone. And as happy as I would be if I was in a relationship, it wouldn’t be able to make me as happy as I’ll be next year on the Race! Because i’ll be doing what God wants me to do. What God has made me to do! Don’t you think you’ll be the happiest you can be when you’re doing what you were made to do? At some point i’ll settle down and have a great relationship but i’m gonna wait until God makes it happen. Until then, i’m going to focus on the most important relationship I have. The relationship I have with Jesus! When it’s all said and done, that’s the only relationship that really matters!!! And when I am feeling lonely He will always be there to comfort me. He will never leave you!!! He is always there for you!!! So whenever you start to feel lonely, remember that!!!
