“Unshakable faith is faith that has been shaken” – Unknown (to me)
A few months ago I read the above comment, little did I know that it would be the heading for a season that was to come. Lately God has allowed for my faith to be strengthened, and therefore He has allowed for my faith to be shaken.
Just a few days ago, a past teacher of mine passed away from severe cancer. It was completely unanticipated. He hadn’t struggled with this for years and years (at least not to his knowledge), in fact he only realized the problem a month before (to the day) of his pacing.
I heard of his sickness just 4 days after I returned from training camp.
I prayed and prayed for this teacher to be healed. I fasted, prayed without ceasing, sang songs of praise and thanksgiving… did everything I could possibly imagine. His wife even gave me permission to come to the hospital and lay hands on him and pray.
And I believed with all my heart that God would heal him on this earth…. and a week later he died.
When I heard that he had died, I had a struggle believing it. I immediately remembered the words that God had spoken over my heart about him. I thought about his family, his wife, his son, his parents. I thought about all the good that would have been done by having him healed.
My heart was heavy, for as I am preparing to leave for this mission trip I know that there will be many opportunities to pray for the sick, and I began to ask God.. “Lord how do I even pray that You will heal these people, when I was so sure this time, and it didn’t happen?” God reminded me of a song. This is the song that I listened to the first day that I knew that I was going on the WR, and I truly believe that it’ll be the theme song for my race. I’d like to share…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z0Dg-InE8VQ
So my soul is going to rest in HIS higher ways!!! and I’ll stand believing…. whether I understand or not, because I’d rather be wrong knowing that I believed God would, then not believe at all!!
Love you all!
Jo
