Let's talk training camp….
If you read my last blog you know how excited I was to be on my way to training camp. Let me just tell you that things changed. Training camp was hard, I was stretched, comfort was no longer in my vocabulary, doubt crept in and fear took over.
The Phrase "It was hard, but it was so good" comes to mind. We have all heard it and we have all said it. It sums up times in life that we wouldn't necessarily choose and probably didn't enjoy, but had to go through to move forward and begin the process of change.
That was training camp for me. It was hard, but it was so good.
When I signed up for the World Race I wanted change. I wasn't satisfied with the life that I was living. I wanted more. I wanted to give up my life to serve Jesus 100%. I wanted to live my life to love God and love his people. The World Race was my chance to learn how to do that. I wanted to leave all of my comforts behind to become closer to Jesus.
Training camp made me realize that that was not going to be easy.
I freaked out.
"I can't do this. I don't want to give up the food that I like and replace it with rice and who knows what else. This whole tent thing isn't as cool as it sounded. Do you know how much I am going to miss in a year? Weddings, birthdays, holidays and all the little meaningful moments in between. I don't want to not see my mom and dad for 11 months. That sounds miserable. I like fast internet. I like netflix. I like what I know. I like being in my comfort zone. What I am doing now is pretty great. Do I really want to give that up? No, no I don't"
I found myself at the bottom of a mountain.
I had two options: I could be intimidated by the trail that led up the mountain and run back as fast as I could to what I knew or I could take the risk and start climbing the mountain with all that I had, even though I didn't know what the journey to the top held.
I choose in. I choose change. I choose the unknown. I choose to love. I choose a minimalistic life style. I choose to leave behind my comforts. I choose to let God work on me from the inside out so that he can use me for whatever it is that he has for me. I choose to have my world rocked. I choose to take the journey and begin the process that Jesus is about to take me on. I choose to be real and vulnerable.
I am going to follow where He leads, while holding His hand the entire time and listening to Him for direction.
Right now that is to the World Race.
So here goes nothing.
(The crew I will travel the world with. I SQUAD!)
(Introducing team Shekinah! The girls I will live life with this year.)
