have been preparing for The Race the word fundraising has been haunting me. No matter how many support letters I have sent out and how many people I have talked to about the race, I feel like I should be doing more. I need to get more letters out, do more things, talk to more people and the list goes on and on. I have the days where I am so content and know that God is going to provide and it is all going to come together. THEN there are the days where I get all crazy dramatic and feel like I will never get all the money and I am going to get sent home packing from Africa. Oh and there are also days that I feel both of these things at the same time, not sure how that is possible but it happens. All of this craziness leads to excessive checking of my fundraising account and a lot of praying. A LOT of praying.
Even though there are lots of days where I forget or doubt this, I know that God is in control. I know $15,500 is nothing but easily doable for God. I know that it will all come through and work out. I know that I will not be packing up and flying home by myself from Africa.
God is good. God is our provider. God works in mysterious ways that I can't see or even begin to understand. God is there and in control of every situation. These are the things that I remind myself of when I feel like I will never raise the money and I start to see all of my dreams and excitement that I have built up for the race slipping away.
While praying I am constantly reminded of the ways that God confirmed my going on The World Race. When I was applying for The Race I didn't hear God tell me "Jillian, this is it. Go for it." , I didn't really hear anything. I just knew I wanted to do something where I could love on people while spreading Jesus' love and I wanted to travel as much as I could. SO you can imagine how finding The World Race was basically perfect. So I just went for it not really knowing if it was what i was "supposed to do". BUT after I got accepted I had confirmation from God not once but three times (he knows me pretty well to know that I need to hear it lots). After this I knew I was going and I knew I had made the right decision. And now God has been continually reminding me that he is not going to bring me into something and leave me hanging to deal with it on my own. God is going to provide and come through for the things he has called us to. I absolutely know it!
