Today I sit here feeling frustrated. The number keeps growing of the amount of my friends and family members that have found someone to spend the rest of there life with. It's very easy for me to start comparing myself to them. But then I remember where God has me at this exact moment. I'm serving Him in 11 different countries throughout the span of 11 months. I have witnessed Muslims come to know Jesus as there Lord and Savior and not just think of him as a good man. I have seen people be healed in the name of Jesus. I've watched former street kids addicted to drugs throw up there hands and worship God. I've seen people break free from the do's and dont's of religion and experience what it means to be in love with Jesus. I have been able to sit down with prostitutes and let them know there worth in Christ is so much more then any amount of money any man can pay them. I got to spend time in a Buddhist temple befriending a monk and showing him the love of God. I've sat in one of the most dangerous neighborhoods in Honduras and talked about God with a group of drug dealers. I've sat along side 13 year old girls who were raped by there fathers and let them know they have hope in Jesus Christ. I was able to hold hands with a witch doctor and pray for her to experience Gods love for the first time. I was able to bathe and care for the wounds of children in a village in the middle of Cambodia. I've been able to encourage and pray for a single mother whose husband was shot right in front of her and the list can go on. The only reason I've been able to witness and be apart of these things is solely because of the fathers mercy and grace over me. I'm not anyone special and I know the only good thing I have to offer is Christ. And through all these situations over the past 8 months so far God is using it to show me how I can better serve you in the future, better love you, how to pray for you continually, constantly show mercy to you, look for the best in you, how to call you up into who Christ says you are, how to be able to follow you and allow you to be my spiritual leader. I'm thankful for where I'm at right now and thankful that God has highlighted things in my life I need to work on. Right now, I'm not the person you need, but know that God is growing me to be that woman for you. A woman who fears The Lord. I've been praying for you constantly and I can't wait for the day I get to say I do.
Love,
Your future wife
