In Nepal a squad mate challenged us each to write ourselves two letters; one from satan and one from God. I have been putting it off not wanting to think about what the devil has to say but, I am so glad I took her up on that challenge! It was so refreshing to see the freedom I received from writing it all out. If you are a believer I highly suggest you to take on the two letter challenge as well.
The Lord is walking me through an intense season of vulnerability and openness; sharing these letters is far out side of my comfort zone. Though what I have shared is personal, it is not in great detail or my whole story, so please don’t hesitate to reach out privately if you have questions about how God walked me out of the first letter into the second. He is teaching me the many purposes of my story and showing me how He has already started to redeem and use the 22 years I lived with out His guidance.
With that said, here is the first letter:
Dear Jessica,
Your past will always define who you are. There is no escaping your struggles they will always rule you. You can’t trust anyone, look how you’ve been hurt by the people you have trusted in the past; that will always be the case. If you tell people the truth about your life and what you’ve worked so hard to hide, they will judge and look down at you. You don’t know how to have fun with out enhancing your personal party; the conversations aren’t as interesting and the music isn’t as good without drugs or alcohol. No one will ever take your relationship with God seriously; you will always be the first one to finish her drink and accept any dare no matter how self degrading it is because you’re worthless and already stained so who cares, right? Because of that no man will ever actually love you for you, once they find out what you’ve done they will call you crazy and find someone who isn’t as screwed up as you are. You will never meet the expectations of others, what you have to offer will never be enough. You will always be angry and cold hearted, you’re a bad person. The life you want is only a fairytale, it will never be your reality; so you might as well stop trying and accept it.
– The Enemy.
Check out my next blog for the second letter…
