It was about a year ago when I started to feel really weird symptoms in my body. I just felt completely off and not like myself. It's hard to explain. After I decided to go on the World Race I knew that I needed to see a doctor because what if there was something seriously wrong with me? I went to a few doctors and finally went to a gynecologist. After getting my weight checked I was down about 7 pounds than my normal. I wasn't trying to loose weight so that scared me. My blood pressure was really low. After my blood tests the doctor sat me down and told me that not knowing, over time I was stressed out: Physically, emotionally, mentally. I was always a determined and hard worker, mind always racing, working a lot, had a great social life, volunteered with church and outside organizations/activities.
Apparently I am not superwomen, I can't do everything.
From stress my body began to loose weight and because I eat very healthy and exercise a lot my body fat percentage got abnormally low. As a very athletic woman can have 18% body fat, I was now down to 11% body fat. That's not good. I didn't know any of this until the doctor informed me. From all of this I then found out that I lost almost all the estrogen in my body. When I heard this, my mind went blank. I asked the doctor if I was producing a lot of testosterone? She said, "no, you're not producing anything. You are a very beautiful woman so let's start getting something in you." This scared me. I also hadn't started my menstrual cycle in about a year. The doctor told me I need to start my cycle for it to start regulating. Overtime I realized I needed to rest, change my lifestyle, eat proper nutrients, exercise but not intense, and trust and depend on God for my life; with everything.
Right before leaving for The Race I felt great. Now it's month 9 and I am feeling the symptoms again and this is a prayer I just prayed. Please be keeping me in your prayers through all of this. Thank you.
Jesus…I need you. I need you now. Thank you for the life that I get to live. The person that you have made me. On purpose you made me perfect in your image. I have no idea why I am feeling the symptoms again of low estrogen… It frustrates me Lord feeling not like myself, it's hard going day to day and sometimes my thoughts are blurred, sometimes I don't have energy. It's hard when no one understands how i'm are feeling… God. I need you now. I know if I do it on my own I fall to the ground and can't get up…I don't have strength on my own…..
I pray that you reveal things that need to be revealed. Am I sick because I have sinned and now you have allowed this upon me, but God DO NOT disown me…I trust and know that you will never. God, is it because I have trust issues in places where I have tried to do things on my own where I need to fully trust you? I feel like I trust you, but you are the only one that truly knows. The realities struck my mind; will I be able to bear my own children one day like I truly desire? That makes me really scared. Gut the filth out of my heart. Take it..I give it to you, I put it down at the cross. Am I sick because through it you will be glorified?? It is nothing that I do to heal. I thank you that the body is so great and intricate and can heal because the way you made it..but it's only through you that it's possible. Glory to God for you have mercy upon me and heal me completely..From the inside out. From my heart, to my mind, from my sins, to my physical body. Jesus, am I sick because I lack in prayer? Because you tell us to gather together to pray for eachother when sick and because we lack praying and believing for eachother? Do we lack faith in healing and need to realize we need you?
Jesus, I trust you. I pray now for revelations and understanding and wisdom.
Teach me where I need healing. Where is my heart? Where do I need to trust you the most? I thank you, Jehovah-rapha (Healer) that you have healed me completely. Jesus..take my life..I lay it down..I lay down my own plans, visions. You are my strength when I am weak..you are strong, bold, gracious, mercficul, great, compassionate, loving, never ending..God my heart is in constant chaos but I give you everything.
Empty my hands, fill up my heart, capture my mind with you..I need you.
Please Watch this Video and listen to the words..let this be your prayer. Today I sat and listened to this song over and over again in tears out to the Lord.
