So I’m almost done with month one and the most I can say is that transitions are hard.
This really isn’t news to me, I knew they would be but just imagining having to do them 10 more times after this month is up doesn’t sound like all that much fun.
Over this past month I’ve had the pleasure of investing into a local boy in the neighborhood. Almost everyday this month we would either play futbol, play video games at a local video game cafe, or hang out on a park bench. He, like most kids, comes from a muslim family.
While we were playing good ol’ Warcraft 3 (who would have guess I would be playing that out here in Macedonia) he asked me how long till I I’d be gone and whether or not I’d be coming back. The best I could do was say I don’t know, but we’ve got next week.
Since day one of being here in Macedonia I knew this day was coming, It wasn’t some unforseen surprise that I would be leaving the country. I know God is going to continue to do amazing things over these next 11 months and that I should be excited because this is just the beginning of the adventure but I can’t help be deny the reality that transitions in life are hard.
I love adventure and I do love change but despite all of that its funny how much I still long for stability and really just for things to be comfortable. I know in my head that when God brings change it always leads to a good thing but I can help but still be afraid of that change.
Theres going to be a lot of transitions over these next 11 months whether I like it or not. Investing into the people in each country means also having to say goodbye and letting go, and that sucks. Choosing to care for people does mean intentionally hurting myself when its time to say goodbye, but I see it as a good thing.
Grief and loss is the flip side to joy (shout out to Dr. Mitch) and that the hurt simply mean that there was a real connection and that what was there meant something.
I’d rather live my life pouring myself out into those around me like Argon even if it means letting myself be hurt when its time to say goodbye than choosing to never reaching out them them out of fear of letting myself be hurt.
