To My Future Daughter

I am completely blown away by the love of the Father.  The way He romances our hearts and the way that He displays love.  I am blown away that I am created in His imagine and I am overwhelmed that I obtain the ability to love just as He loves. I am still learning so much about how to love and how to love better. I am still learning about consistency and preferring others above myself. I am by no means perfect but God is walking me into a place of High Love.

These girls at Remember Nhu are touching me in a really personal way.  More than they would ever know and more than I could have ever imagined.  I never thought I would be so moved by a set of girls I have only known for two weeks.  I see them as my daughters and cannot even explain to you how or why.  Other than the sole reason that I am seeing deeper places with the eyes of the Father.

I don't want to leave in seven days, but I know that it is how God designed my life this year.  I know that the passion the Father has placed in my heart for them doesn't even compare to the fierce passion He has burning inside of Him for me.  This is a letter I wrote that shares a little bit more of my heart.

To my future daughter,

I am in love with you and I don't care who knows about it.  I have spent the last couple of weeks hanging out with girls in Thailand who have opened my eyes to how much you mean to me.  I cannot wait to show you what it means to have a Father who loves you and to show you that you are the most beautiful girl in the world.  I've seen the world with a new set of eyes, and I want to give you the gift of life that some girls are robbed from as a child.

I have been praying about you every day.

I promise to provide for you spiritually, emotionally and physically.  Not only because I am your father, but because my Father in heaven has shown me the amazing power of love.  

I want to give you the world.  

I want to be silly with you.  

I want you to experience each stage of your life to the fullest and to never be put in a place that makes you grow up faster than you are supposed to.

I've seen the way my dad treats my sister and I cannot help but desire that relationship with you.  At first I didn't quite understand it but now it is so real.  I want to spoil you with love.

I can't wait to take you on adventures and experience new things with you.  I promise to be there for you when you need me most and I promise to speak to you about guarding your heart.  I promise to try my hardest not to hurt you, but if I do hurt you I promise I will not be passive.  I promise to step into your life when I need to and not turn a blind eye or a passive shoulder.  You mean so much to me, right now.

I will tuck you in at night and read you stories.  You will always be welcome to come snuggle with me during a lightning storm or after a nightmare.

I will be there for you when you need to be kept safe.  I will listen to you when you need someone to talk to and I will just listen.  I wont try to fix you, I will just be.

I will be completely open with you and no part of my life will be a secret to you.  You deserve to know my heart, you deserve to know my struggles and you deserve to have a deep intimacy with me.  The reason I say this is because God has created me in his imagine, and this is what He desires and shows me.  I want to be like Him and I want our relationship to reflect His.

You are loved.

I can't wait to pick you up for the first time because I know that will be the best day of my life.

Love,
Your father.

Please pray for the girls here at the homes who are not Christians, that they will be able to see the love of Christ in a new way.  I wish I could tell you their names but for their safety it must be kept secret.  They are the most beautiful set of girls I have ever seen.