This morning, I sat down to write my testimony out. Instead of trying to recite my testimony by heart, like usual, I asked God to show me more than just the things I was choosing to remember. To point out more times in my life that I had neglected or forgotten.
I mapped out my testimony using a timeline application on my iPad and just begun to write out what has happened in my short 24 years on earth. As I began typing, I saw times in my life where God had prepared a glorious path with Him. In Oklahoma for a revival at a church and I was saved from a stray bullet. The bullet was shot in a drive by shooting by gang members in downtown Oklahoma City. A bullet that came out of a wall directly in front of me, but did it not hit me. And was nowhere to be found after an extensive search.
I saw a vision of an angel standing in front of me catching that bullet.
I received a phone call from my grandmother at the exact minute I got out of jail on a hazy Sunday morning. Crying she exclaimed in the voicemail:
"God is going to do great things through you if you would just trust in Him. I just see Him using you in the mightiest of ways that I cannot describe it."
Just recently I received a revelation from a new friend in Romania, David, who told me that He saw me in a vision. His words:
"You have a dangerous heart. God has prepared great things for you. He loves your heart and the way that you seek after Him. He said that you have a heart after His heart. Continue to seek Him with all that you have and He will continue to bless your path. I see a vision of me sitting on a couch watching you on TV and me saying, 'I know him.' God has big things in store for your life and He loves your humble heart."
The instances above are just a small portion of what He has revealed to me over these past four months on the race. My previous blog about becoming a Warrior is just part of His mysterious plan. But, as I looked back over these monumental moments in my life, I can see the devil at work in my life. He revealed to me recently that there are two choices: "You choose to press into me, or you can choose to try to battle this yourself."
In the past, I have chosen self. I chose to half-heartedly follow after Jesus and see half-hearted results. I can see that my sin has kept me from truly walking into a dangerous place with God. I can see times in my life when I thought I had to be perfect to spend time with God, instead of seeking him in my brokenness. Here in Eastern Europe I have been attacked with lust in a more powerful way than any time on the World Race. As I look back over my life, lust has been something that has kept my leadership ability at a standstill. I thought Central America was bad, but as God is guiding me into His Promised Land, I see the giants that stand ahead. Eastern Europe is not harder because the women are prettier or because they don't like to wear clothes, it is harder because God has something explosive prepared and the devil is afraid.
So as I am attacked here in Eastern Europe, God has asked me the simple question:
"What are you going to do about it? What are you going to give up, so that I can overcome? Are you willing to rely on me for your power?"
My answer was and is to press in deeper. I chose to give up sleeping longer in the mornings and to wake up to spend extra quiet time with God. I chose to trust that He is going to fight for me in my weakness. I am not a slave to sin and I am not going to let these giants keep me from my inheritance with Jesus. God is calling me to walk in a new anointing with the Holy Spirit; an anointing that is followed by signs and wonders.
The examples displayed apostles of the New Testament are boiling inside of this generation and just desiring to burst out of the crust of this earth. This generation is walking into newness with God that we have never experienced. As the water beneath the surface begins to boil from God's anointing, the steam that is currently being pour out on this earth is only the beginning of the geyser that is going to explode in this dry land.
