The process to Absolute Freedom
It was extremely PAINFUL
It was full of GRIEVING
It was completely BREAKING
Yet it was beautifully REDEMPTIVE
Yet it was discovering my IDENTITY
Yet it was relinquishing all my RIGHTS
Yet it was absolutely FREEING
to be whom God has called has called me to be. The past 9 days of my life have been some of the hardest yet most beautiful days of my life. Honestly, coming into training camp I was not sure how much I would learn and experience. In a lot of ways I thought I understood enough of myself and what following Jesus really meant. Thankfully and humbly I tell you that I was blown away at the growth I experienced at camp.
Pain and grief are no secret to any human being; everyone has lost something (from family, to friend, to security, to self worth, and to true identity, etc.) As humans we have the capacity to compartmentalize our hurt; unfortunately, this temporary fix leads to strongholds of the hidden pain. These veiled fortresses of grief and misery are left in our hearts through hiding, denying, and rationalizing their existence. The sad reality is that these footholds in our lives can unload their wraith through anger, bitterness, unforgiveness, addictions, and facades of the heart. It is a scary and dangerous place to be, to have a heart that has unresolved pain. Satan does and will use these areas of our heart to paralyze our existence.
Personally I wrote over 60 unsettled disappointing and painful experiences in my life. They ranged from things like: not making my high school varsity soccer team, to questioning my identity in Christ. Thankfully I have seen deliverance and healing in many areas of my life at this time. This process left my heart raw but also tender in spirit. I was broken and emotionally drained, and it was such a bittersweet place to be. I now was ready for the process of redemption and having my identity built up in Christ.
In my next blog I will discuss my redemption, identity, rights, and freedom in Christ. Check out part two of the series soon.
