Wanted to share a story with you, a story of my own freedom.
Last weekend, I had individual session with my squad leaders, and we talked about things including my relationship with God. Then, it became very clear, that I was operating as a Christian, but not functioning as one. Translation: walking and talking as a Christian, but not really living life to the fullest.
Coptic Orthodox religion was the only one that existed in my family for generations. It left a big shadow in my thought process, even after I had started living as a believing Christian in Aug 2007. I had feared God the wrong way. Now, I realize that I had lived most of my life with a view of slave-master relationship with God. My prayers in my quiet time and in public were filled with repentance and asking for God’s grace frequently. But Romans 6 stated that I’m already living under the grace.
I had missed living the balanced life of repentance and living joyfully. More often than not, I had wondered about where my joy and laughter as a kid had gone. For years, I had already known there was something oppressing inside of me, and I wanted to break free of that. I was crying as I was talking about what was going in my confused years of Christianity, and wanted to step into freedom. Whenever I read Romans 6 in the past, I didn’t think it applied to my current life. It made me think of my past and other persons whom I thought were living in bondage. No, it was talking about my present life. God, I don’t know you!!! I don’t know you. It makes me cry even more. Satan had been robbing me of the joy that God wanted for me, the life that my savior, Jesus Christ, had died for and wanted me to live to the fullest! (John 10:10)
Currently, I’m still processing this in my head; and I’m much more quiet than the usual. Not sure how long it will take to practically start living the truth God has brought to my attention.
I want to make a statement—in my decision to choose living life to the fullest instead of under oppression, I divorce any influences of religion, culture and false Bible lessons. God, please make yourself known to me. I want to know you. I choose to seek freedom from your own Word!
