I've been praying about the World Race for over a year now so you'd think by now I'd have some expectations as to what I might experience while away for 11 months…and I DO! However, I know there will be many I missed, many I might NOT experience and others I will experience far more than I'd like.
I expect:
to be broken. broken-hearted. frustrated. to be cold. to be too hot. lonely.
missing my family. to have a new family. missing my friends. to have new friends.
to be angry. grateful. greedy. missing my luxuries. to be loved.
to love on others. to be thankful. in need of privacy. community.
to feel the Spirit. to be renewed. homesick. sad. joyful. hopeless.
wrecked for the ordinary. to create new expectations for myself. to grow closer to God.
to fear God more. to love God more. to sometimes count the days until I get home.
to be homesick when I get back to Canada.
I know there are lots I'm missing and as I wrote out this list I couldn't help but wonder how the heck I am going to deal with and get through all these feelings in 11 months. It's pretty overwhelming and I don't look forward to experiencing some of them but I know that I have a God who is almighty and who I can rely on, a God who won't give me more than I can handle and will equip me to do His works around the World.
