Loved ones.
How do I begin to tell you of all the wonders that these eyes have seen?
I believe with all my heart that God will speak to you, and this I pray:
"Abba, Father, I don't have the words right now. I can hardly begin to recall all that you showed me this last week at Training Camp. You have shattered my reality, and You have brought me into Yours. Speak through me, Lord. Give me the words to speak life into all that will read this, that they may witness Your glory, and see themselves as You see them. Your beloved. Father, my heart lies with You, and as You destroyed the box that I tried to hold You in, I found indescribable freedom in worshiping You for who you actually are, not for who I tried to make you out to be. Speak into my loved ones' lives, that even if made uncomfortable, that they will see You as wonderful, and loving, and untamed in Your GOODNESS. Remind them of how You are relentlessly pursuing them, and awaken their hearts more, Holy Spirit, to see all that you want to give them."
I went into Training, begging God to be released from spiritual cobwebs that had built up inside and to be released to worship Him how he DESERVES to be worshiped. Without a doubt, He provided.
But more about that in blogs soon to follow 🙂
Here's the lighter end of how Training Camp wrecked me (in a GREAT way):
I ate Asian, Latin American, Africa, Eastern European, and Indian food in portions WAY too small.
But God gave me all the sustanance I needed for the day.
I didn't sleep in the same place all week. From a tent, to on a school bus, to on a tarp, to "losing" my gear and sharing with a friend, to a tent with 10 other men.
But God taught me that where I call home, is NOT where I lay my head to rest.
I had ZERO alone time (yikes for an introvert)
But God gave me solitude in worship of Him
I worshiped and prayed with others constantly.
But God stretched everything I thought worship could or should be.
I was called to lead a team of 6 of my squadmates, and I was TERRIFIED.
But God used others to affirm that call in prophetic words spoken over me, and He gave me new identity.
I didn't want to depend on others, because I thought I could take care of myself.
But God gave me a family of 55, and taught me the beauty of living in community.
Friends, my world was shattered this week, and I praise the LIVING God for it. Please ask Him to open your hearts, for as I continue to share more about Training Camp, we will be going further up and deeper in!
