Man, I miss having an empty blog space sometimes. I look at the blank white page that I get to expand upon and it kind of makes me excited. Even if I have no idea what I’m going to write about I find great peace in knowing and celebrating that I have no clue what I’m doing most of the time.
The greater aspect of it, however, is really being so satisfied in being completely dunderheaded and clueless but somehow in the know because I trust Jesus and the wonderful Spirit that He has so freely given me. I have spent so much time absorbing a pre-conceived sense of panic that was sat on my shoulders by all sorts of different crafty tricks Satan manipulatively matriculated around me and frankly, I don’t really want to waste my time obsessing about little things He does when the never-ending greatness of the King lives and dwells within me. Man, it is so FREEING to rest in my faith with hope for the future and knowing that I am loved endlessly and unconditionally. I could’ve heard people say that 10,000,000 times but until I really believed it, I was a self-reliant blowhole who’s thoughts were a constant sound barrier for the resounding gong of truth.
If I am losing you or just making you roll your eyes a little, I’m actually quite joyful about that. Jesus understands me even if I sound a little crazy and I am finally grasping the concept that I am free to be clueless and faithful at the same time. I will be glad to go wherever and do anything because I know Jesus will be with me. He is the same yesterday, today and forever and knowing that I have a perfect Savior within me is more than enough for me to absolutely float in freedom. He is too good to trust in anything else so why would I be disinclined to follow Him?
Whether I sound like I’ve lost my marbles or not, I know that Jesus has me taken care of and that is all I really need to know. Don’t start thinking I’m going to turn my brain off and turn into a vegetable who rocks back and forth in the fetal position, just know that I trust Jesus and put all of my marbles into His jar. I’m sold out for the heart who took everything for all of us and loves me and thinks of me more than the grains of sand. Why would I question that?
