Hello from Cambodia!
We are in a new country for the month of April- MONTH SEVEN! It is hard to believe that the months I have left on the World Race can now be counted on one hand. Time is flying by, I’m rolling with the punches and the Lord is raining down the blessings. I love this life and I couldn’t have asked for anything better than this.
Funny thing is, my disposition has not been this sunny up until these past two travel days. I have been absolutely cloud-headed, bogged down and begrudged by people who seemed to be doing well. I was really starting to grow further into my gifts and talents but I started having a serious mental wrestling match with the enemy. To put a long story short, Satan was doing his best to hold me back from the steps God has designed for my walk. The enemy would see my progress towards furthering the Kingdom and do his best to fog my thoughts. I could not focus on anything and my time with the Lord was little to nonexistent. My mind left an incredible month in Malaysia in a sea of minimum clarity and maximum confusion. I wasn’t sure what to do until I had a few exhorting conversations with some fellow squad members.
We arrived to a 17 hour wait at the Kuala Lumpur airport, hogging up floor space, playing games on luggage trolleys, eating excessive ice cream cones and discussing our past ministry months. I pinned down a few select friends from other teams and starting gabbing the night away. The conversations were all very different, but it was still clear that I wasn’t getting my thoughts to come out the way I knew they should. Just as I was about to go and take a serious nap on the floor, God did was He does best… throw me a forehead smacking DUH realization from the mouth of a friend. Simply put, I need to give up all the things that are distracting me from spending and searching after Him.
He made it blatantly clear that it’s not just time for a fast, but one that truly requires me to sacrifice things that sting. It’s time for me to stop focusing on what Satan makes tempting and focus on what He has made real. I’ve got to give up anything that takes away from me devoting myself the Lord. My computer, music, games, movies, what have you, they have all got to go. I have got to stop and see everything He is doing, listen to what He has to say and read what He has written. I have to fall into so much of Him that I recognize I don’t need anything else.
This month is a short one (only 3 weeks) and we will be working with Vietnamese refugees in a remote location with only bicycles for transportation. Our ministry is going to be a challenging one due to quite a lot of sinful warfare going on in this country- but God is preparing us. I do not want to head into a month that needs my full dedication with my heart being preoccupied. I know what God wants from me, which is ALL of me.
Please pray for me during this challenge. I will write at the end of April!
