I have really been struggling with how to write my next blog, and here I am, still struggling with words. My life has changed so much even within the last 4 months since being home. And it not only changed once, but I have gone through multiple changes…over and over and over. And maybe I am just scared that everything will change once again after writing this blog. Some of you know part of the story, others know none of it, while some of you are lucky enough to know all of it.
So here goes. My best solution that I have came up with to tell you how my plans have changed since I got home from The World Race…
While on the WR: Plans to move back to Indiana to finish my Math degree at Indiana Wesleyan University (IWU). Slowly things began changing a lot, and…
August: I was called home. I loved catching up with family and friends. I also had plans to transfer and attend NC State in January to finish my undergrad degree, studying Meteorology.
September: I heard God telling me that I just needed to MOVE. I took that literally and through an interesting and awesome series of events, I started planning to move to the San Diego, California area this coming January.
October: Continuing plans to go to California.
November: One afternoon, I finally had the privilege to take a tour of my dad’s new hospital, Kernersville Medical Center (shout out to dad!). I went back home that day and sat on the couch with my mom, completely broken and confused why God would give me so many passions; none of them seemingly going together. When all of a sudden, it felt as if all of the universes aligned, and tears began streaming down my face. Yeah, I started laughing, screaming, angry, excited, bawling my eyes out, etc …all at the same time! I’m sure it was an odd string of emotions -just ask my mom, ha- but I finally had the feeling that THIS made the most perfect sense I have felt in the longest time.
What’s “THIS”, you ask? Well, that leaves us at December, where obviously plans have changed since August but have also come full circle…
Looks like I’m not really going anywhere. I have mixed emotions about that, of course. I haven’t actually truly lived at home in about 5 years. I’ve changed, home has changed, and just trying to live in the midst of all of that is very different. I kind of have a love/hate relationship with it right now, but I’m coming around. 😉
As to school, I have plans to finish my undergrad degree online (since I took a year off to do the WR) starting in January via IWU. I will also be taking some science classes at a local university to prepare for my future in medicine.
Whoop, yeah, I said it… MEDICINE. Yeah I never really saw that coming, yet I totally did. And from what I’ve heard, a lot of you have always seen that as well. If only you had told me this 5 years ago…!! Haha.
All throughout my time away at college, I was always pursuing Math or some sort of science. I had even made a lot of preparation with professors to make sure I could fulfill all my pre-med classes that I would need before graduation, “just in case” I ever decided to go down that path. All of it was just really bad timing. As you can very well guess, I was just WAY too social in school to want to spend all of my time with my head in my books. But maybe that’s why God took me away for a year.. So I can get my head on straight and realize how much I actually do love using my brain in this way.
Yes, I am definitely terrified of it all. It’s that bittersweet feeling that this is what God is actually calling me to. I never really wanted this path, yet it makes the most sense with who I am and how God has crafted me to fit into His Kingdom. I always thought being a doctor would put lots of limits on me, but my eyes have recently been opened to what this could look like for me in the future with my knowledge of medicine and this vast world full of beautiful people!
