I’ve now been living in El Salvador for over 2 months. It has a great experience so far that has already been shaping me into the true son of God I am meant to be. As I spend more and more time with the Lord each day I see further into the love and goodness of our Father. I am constantly in prayer, asking The Lord to break me down, mold me, and fix me to be more like Him.
Recently as the Lord reveals more of himself to me, I have started to realize that I have spent so much of my life worrying about obtaining an answer about the future. Through some tough talks with people and a lot of prayer I realize that I have never let myself be content with what is happening where my feet are. It is as if my mind automatically goes ahead to a different moment. An expectation of what will happen in a minute, hour, day, or even year seems to always take my mind off the present moment.
I feel as if the Lord is telling me, “the more you are living in the future the less you are living with me.” Convicted, I truly believe the Lord is calling me to live now, in the present. Because even though he knows your future he is not living there, he is living in the here and now, and he is desiring for you to be with Him this very moment.
It is hard and it takes practice to change the mentality I have established over the past 18 years of always thinking ahead. Always praying/trying to comprehend what the Lord has in store for me. I am realizing that no matter how much you worry and pray for answers about the future, God is going to respond in his beautiful timing.
With all that being said, I have less than a month left here and even though we have the details on what type of ministry my team will be doing in Malawi I am choosing daily to continue to focus on the now. My team and I are working harder now than ever before because of the limited time. Working as hard as possible to strike up meaningful conversations at our homeless ministry, continuing to try and make the children laugh in our hospital ministry, and using every second we have with the children at the church to be an impact in their lives.
Please continue to pray for my team to keep there eyes on the Lord and on the time we have left here.
