It started as a typical men’s meeting… way too much testosterone and far too much desire to blow things up. “Everything’s fine,” I think to myself. “I have been here before, I have seen most of these things” Little did I know the things that where just ahead.
As we traveled to our destination, you could sense the anticipation growing for what may lay ahead. Having arrived, we were presented with a very simple task (sorry; can't tell you any secrets on what the task was!). I felt confident within myself that I could do it but…
With nearly ever ounce of energy out of me, I struggled to stay alive. You see, God was speaking to me once again about my utter need for Him. Having started out in a task that I thought was manageable and achievable under my own strength, I was now faced with a new reality – that I can't do it. Panic and desperation set in.
How easily I forget my absolute need for Him; that He is the source of all my strength! Why is this? What is it within us that makes us think we can do it on our own? This training camp has broken me but it has also restored me, having placed me in alignment with my real source of strength… Him!
I pray that as you move into this process, you will open your heart to the brokenness and restoration that God wants to work within and through you.
Your Brother in Christ,
Billy
