Later God spoke or I listened…
Basically, He showed me how I had set in my mind plans for my future. These plans were a mix of things that I had either thought I was called to or eventually desired to be. He has had a history of changing my plans anyway so I’ve held to them loosely which I thought was wise. In a way I felt as though there was more protection in having that direction even if it was loosely. That day He asked if He could roll away the tarp of the things I had looked to in my future as my direction so that I would see the sky behind it. Why He asked for permission sometimes baffles me, but I appreciated it. Regardless it was an easy decision at the time.
So, this past month He has been slowly taking away some of my plans for the future. This can be an easy process of just letting go at times. Other times though I felt provoked as He stirred my heart. Each time I was provoked, He would ask one simple question:
“What matters most?”
Even the times where I wanted to make it more, my general hearts reply was that the thing that matters most is that I’m getting closer to His heart. Everything else will fall into place. So, right now I still have a little idea of where He is taking my future but I have no guarantee that will remain or be taken away. Overall, I’m fairly directionless past this next half hour and feel about as steady and stable about that as I have ever felt in my entire life…I’m learning to trust a God who is trustworthy and I know that He’ll take care of the details…I only have to focus on being faithful NOW…He’ll reveal more when it’s time.
