I've always heard the adage "God never gives us more than we can bear," but never really understood what that meant nor where it came from. To the best of my knowledge, I could not find a Scripture that actually says that, but I think it could have come from Philippians 4:13, or possibly 1 Corinthians 10:13 or a combination of both. I also have always heard "be careful of what you ask God for," and, again, I never understood that until recently. I found out just how hard our Christian walk can be these past couple of months. I have been dealing with doubts after doubt of my faith and everything that I have always believed in. I didn't really know where these things came from until I realized that I had asked for them, they were definitely not what I had expected though. For a while now, I have been praying for faith that was real. For a faith that was beyond the simple, weak, faith that can be shaken. I wanted something that was unshakeable and something that would stand any test or trial that it went through. I know that God heard that and was waiting until I was ready for it, I just didn't realize how tough this was gonna be. Out of nowhere one day I just started questioning everything I had always accepted as truth. I questioned God's existence, I questioned whether or not I believed what I believed just because thats what I was taught, I mean, the list goes on and on. I didn't know what was the deal and I have been dealing with these questions ever since. I finally realized what the deal was; God had finally answered my prayer. He was and is shaping and growing my faith through these questions and through this "crisis of faith." I just didn't realize how rough it was gonna be, but I know that He is in control. Its like the Sanctus Real song "Whatever You're Doing (Something Heavenly)." That song is the perfect illustration for me right now. I realize now that if I had know that it was gonna be this rough, I don't know if I would have asked for such a dramatic change of my faith, but regardless of that I now welcome it. I understand what people mean when they say be careful of what you ask God for because you may actually get it, but we are not given a "spirit of timidity, but that of power", and we also have the assurance that we can approach the throne with boldness and that we don't have to be afraid of our Father. I want to challenge those reading this post, as well as the one writing it :), to be bolder in our requests of God, no matter what that request may bring. Don't give in to the "be careful what you ask for" mentality, be bold and let God work in you and do something in you that only He can do.
