In everything we do, at first we have wonder. I can’t help it. I’m a dreamer. It is what I do, I love to think about something and create an entire scenario… But when it’s time to take action, I have a tendency to just let it stay in my head. I have a problem with realizing, something I’ve dreamed of for a long time is actually happening. I wait for the perfect opportunity to act, just long enough to see that it has already gone by. I let my wonder with my situation get in the way of my action. Especially when I think about talking to people about Jesus. I think through how I’m going to go about it, it fills me with wonder, and then I don’t do it. The words that I over think have the potential to more than change not only the people I say them to, but me to.
Wonder is not a bad thing, but it can distract us from taking action. Wonder can become comfortable.
Every day closer to the race, I realize that this is no longer a dream, my wonder is being replaced by action. The decisions I make have the potential of to impact a lot of peoples lives, and that can be scary. It’s scary because I don’t know what might happen. The closer I get to action the more I realize how ignorant I am.
My problem isn’t that I don’t plan ahead, it’s that I forgot that it’s not my plan in the first place.There is a time where planning everything out can be a good thing, but more often than not, our faith is not one of them.
Sometimes to move forward with God, it involves us to just let go and dive in. Will it be uncomfortable?
Very.
But it gives us an opportunity to flow with God’s plan, not ours. After all, Jesus called the Holy Spirit in us a comforter for a reason. It is in us to give us God’s comfort when we are in a place where we are doing His will. The what if’s, and buts are excuses for me to rely on myself.
God gave me a gift. He gave me the gift of ignorance. Knowing where my life would go wouldn’t only be boring, it would eliminate faith, it would take away my trust. My ignorance gives me a chance to fully rely on my God whom I love. Truly ignorance is bliss, because to me, it is a dependence, a trust, a true belief that God is revealing exactly what I need to see to glorify Him.
