It's hard to explain how I am feeling right now….10 days before leaving & it's strange, I was expecting to feel stressed about packing, excited & terrified all in one, & very sad to say goodbye to loved ones & my home country. However, right now, I feel …nothing. I don't feel stressed, or even anxious & I have a nice peace. Hopefully this feeling lasts for a while, I do realize eventually it will hit me, & I am wondering if it will take me stepping onto that plane to actually grasp that !
So …. this amazing journey that I have been preparing for since last December is now only a week away. Do I have everything I need? I thought I did, but the more I read blogs about "future racers what to bring" the more I come across so much I do not have that apparently is a "must have." Truthfully, I just cannot afford to have more, right now, I have what I think I need, & I am leaving with that.
I am also leaving not being fully funded. This in a sense, complicates things a bit, as I will no longer have the ability to throw fundraisers or tell people face to face about this experience. Now, I pray & trust that God will provide the remaining funds if I am meant to do the entire 11 months. Of course, I was aiming to be fully funded by launch, but I just feel so blessed to be able to go, & I've seen the way God has provided my needs thus far in this trip, I just cannot doubt His will. I KNOW I was called to this journey, I have no doubts about that, so what seems like a lot of money to me, is nothing to Him.
With that said, I hope you can see my heart in doing this trip, it's exciting to travel the world, but for me it's really not about that; it's about the people I am going to meet/help/bless/be blessed by/connect with. I look forward to sharing my experience through my blog & putting my all into the months I am blessed with on this race. Please, keep me in your prayers & if you feel the tug on your heart to donate financially to my journey- Thank You !
My next blog will probably be after I have left & am in the Philippines, so lets let the journey begin ! 😛
